Again I am glad that I am Pagan.
No-one 'indoctinated' me with any of my beliefs. I read anything that I could find about Paganism and found those things which seemed to be right for me, kept on reading and adjusted my way of working with the deities as I gained more knowledge.
The part I have put in bold is the indoctrination. You unconsciously indoctrinated yourself with the ideas of other people that such "deities" existed.
So much better than getting told off for snoring during a long and boring sermon telling me that the world was created in seven days just over 4,000 years ago.
But basically not very different.
It is amazing how people think when they are trying to fit someone else's experiences into thier way of thinking.
If what I did was self-indoctrination then what you have done is far far worse than that, it is acceptance without thought, denial of your God-given freewill and intelligence, of what someone else has told you, without consideratiuon to the possibility of it being incorrect.
If it IS self-indoctrination it is thousands of times better than allowing myself to be indoctrinated by someone else to their way of thinking becasue I am too lazy, or too weak, to think for myself.