AB,
You just did it for me
As you seem to have omitted to post the logical steps that led you to that conclusion, perhaps you’d finally like to share them now?
This thread is full of evidence that many posters want to seek reasons not to believe in God.
You fundamentally misunderstand epistemology. Knowledge isn’t a process of deciding
first that something is true and then asserting
that others look for reasons to not believe you. Rather knowledge is acquired by starting with speculations and conjectures and then looking for evidence to verify them. So far though your speculation “god” is only that – a speculation (or, if you prefer, a guess). You haven’t even tried to construct a cogent or coherent argument to justify that claim.
What do you think determines this "want".
Reason and evidence suggests the answer to be biology.
Is it just an inevitable biological reaction?
That “inevitable” is above your pay grade, but essentially yes.
Or is it a consciously driven choice?
As the claim is incoherent, the answer to that must be “not even no”.
If you want to seek reasons to believe in God,…
Why would you do that as it’s just an open invitation to confirmation bias? What someone "wants" the answer to be tends to corrupt the process - that's why science has techniques like double blind trials that try to eliminate bias.
…they are there in abundance,…
But so far at least they’ve all been very, very bad arguments. Do you have any reasons that
aren’t plainly wrong?
…but you are free to seek reasons to not believe if you so wish.
Another basic mistake – “god” is
your claim, so the burden of proof is with
you to justify it.
The choice is yours –
As a colloquial description of an experience it
feels that way, yes. But that’s all it is – a description on an experience with no explanatory value at all.
…but there is only one truth.
So you assert. How then would you propose to identify what it might be?
However you are free to choose which "wants" to indulge in.
Other than in the colloquial but non-explanatory sense of “choose”, how?
We cannot chose our basic desires, but we are free to choose how to satisfy those desires.
Again, how (without resorting to “it’s magic innit” for your answer)?
Perhaps you do not recognise the most fundamental of all human desires - to love and be loved.
A doubtful assertion, but in any case an entirely irrelevant one.
Can love be defined within your cold "cause and effect" deterministic scenario in which we have no conscious power to choose?
That’s called an appeal to emotion (another fallacy - the "
argumentum ad passiones"), but essentially yes.
Your beliefs may or may not be idiotic (though it seems likely that they are), but your attempts at justifying them certainly are.
Perhaps a little less hubris and a lot more honesty would serve you well in future.