You are doing good for all when you put your position about how you are, how you feel and how you assert the benefits you think your beliefs bring; I'm certain that your continual assertive support of the indefensible puts off far more people, than you will ever encourage to follow your path.
I think your virtually total rejection of rational and well reasoned posts that point out the floors in well, putting it as politely as I can, things that are rationales to you; well I see little hope for you or any sensible future for people like yourself that still hold on to these kinds of, well again, nonsense beliefs.
Yes I would have eat my words if you proved there was anything in your beliefs, but as you must be aware, it's not very likely Alan, is it?
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