torri,
So, you formed a desire to overide your instinctive, or first, response and that prompted a change of tack. Again, it is action and reaction; cause and effect. There is no getting away from it Alan.
As I understand it Alan can't accept that because it drives a coach and four through his religious beliefs, so instead he's been forced to pouffe into existence something he calls a "soul" that in some unexplained way is free of the cause and effect constraints. There's neither reason nor evidence to support the conjecture - and why he thinks his little man at the controls does not have another, even littler man at
his controls is anyone's guess - but there it is.
You can throw as much reason, neuroscience or anything else at him as you like - he'll cling to the odd notion as a man clings to a plutonium parachute come what may.