AB,
Correction, I do understand X which is why I deem it to be a physical impossibility.
Correction:
First, your various mis-statements about the findings of neuroscience in particular tell us that you don’t understand “X” at all.
Second, even if you did understand the findings of neuroscience and the problems it’s working on just now, all that would tell you is that there’s much still to find out. Not for one moment though would that tell you that the phenomena its investigating are “a physical impossibility”, any more than thunder was a physical impossibility before its cause was discovered.
Third, even if you could overcome the first two problems you’d still have not a hint of an iota of a scintilla of a smidgin of an argument
for the “Y” you posit to replace your personal incredulity.
And…
“And”? As your opening line has just collapsed there is no “and”. Anyways…
…any form of personal incredulity (whether right or wrong) is evidence that our conscious awareness is not entirely driven by unguided deterministic events, because we have the ability to decide what is incredulous. Otherwise, if we are just biological robots driven by natural unguided forces, the source of our incredulity is nature itself!
Oh dear. Yes, the source of our incredulity is nature itself.
So what?