Alan, you keep telling us that, in various ways, that this god thingy idea of yours really does exist but you've been unable to tell anybody how or what rational/logical reasoning you've been through that has enabled you/yourself to take on this decision that something you refer to as god, really does exist.
I know there will be no need to wait for you to tell us all about it if you do obtain definitive proof of it's existence, because unfortunately for us, we'd never hear the end of it.
In theory if you pray for long enough and this god, as you call it, really is there, what do you think the odds are that you might get an answer?
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