This thread gets about a thousand views per day, so I would hope that some of these viewers can see the shallow arguments of non believers which reduce human beings to mere biological machines driven entirely by the uncontrollable forces of nature.
And you've provided better, have you?
The fact is that some people are not as terrified as you are of being a biological machine driven by the forces of nature - or indeed not terrified at all. You may be - in fact are - but that's your problem based on the nonsensical twaddle dinned into you before developing a capacity for rational thought (a capacity still absent), along with your manifest inability to offer a sound, cogent, coherent evidence-based alternative. As I said before: pitiable white noise.
It's a huge pity that at your age - whatever that may be - you still labour under somebody else's bad thinking foisted upon you in childhood, but it's probably too late for you now. You would have to show not only a curiosity about the world and the desire to know rather than to believe but the desire to think clearly, critically and sceptically, and you show absolutely no sign of this whatsoever.