I don't see any value in a journey that would lead me into believing a whole bunch of incorrect incoherent claims, that is not a direction that appeals to me, and that fact that you characterise it as a 'journey' speaks volumes about the real nature of such invitations. A truth claim is either true or it is not, and if we have to go on some sort of 'journey' in order to find it true, then it probably isn't true and said journey is naught but a process of mind conditioning that tempts one away from the mental disciplines of critical thinking. You don't demonstrate God Alan, all you actually demonstrate is deep confusion, incredulity, sloppy thinking and fixedness of mind, all of which is no end point that I would ever want to get to.
If you believe in an entirely deterministic world, you cannot object to peoples beliefs and their life style. We cannot reform criminals, we cannot cure illnesses....and so on.
The very point of civilization is that we can control our lives, we can discipline ourselves, we can control our minds and our instincts.
So, there clearly is an element of self Will inherent in the human consciousness.