I am simply aware of my ability to invoke choices according to my conscious will.
You claim it is a logical impossibility
I claim it is reality.
Which shows just how much attention you've been paying.
I have never said you couldn't make a choice according to your conscious will - that was never the issue. It's about how your conscious will arrives at it choices. It either does so entirely for the reasons that led to the choice or not. Not tells us that some part of the choice was for no reason (random).
It really is simple and there is obviously no third option.
I believe the key to this lies with what comprises our conscious awareness, and how it works and interacts with our physical brain. My perception is that our conscious awareness exists and interacts in a spiritual dimension which is always in the present.
The mechanism couldn't be less relevant. This is a logical constraint that has nothing to do with the specifics.
It is aware of the past, but not driven by it.
To the extent it isn't, it is driven by nothing (random).