Yes, you chose, and your choice reflected the state of your 'conscious self' at the point in time of making a choice and we cannot be free of that. Our choices reflect our state of mind, and we cannot choose which state of mind to be in, it doesn't work like that.
And what comprises your state of mind?
Is it just an inevitable reaction to the past?
Or is it conscious awareness of the past which exists in the present?
But there is something more than just reactions and perception.
Somewhere in your state of mind there is "you".
What defines "you"?
What are "you" capable of doing?
What comprises your thoughts?
What drives your thoughts?
Can you not think for yourself?
Are you not in control?
Are you really just an inevitable reaction?
Believe in yourself, Torri, you are far more than just a biological machine - you are an amazing creation made with purpose and meaning.
You have a destiny - a destiny of your own choice.