What you describe is simply an unavoidable reaction to past events.
That is not a choice.
That is not freedom.
You do not get to redefine the language to suit superstition. A choice
is (
must be) a reaction, and, if we take into account every single tiny influence there is, both from inside your mind and personality, and from all the outside circumstances, it
must also be inevitable. The only alternative is that something happened for no reason at all (randomness).
Yes, my ability to choose is done by me, and know I am free to make a conscious choice which is determined by me - not by past events which are beyond my conscious control. I am in control.
This is still a false dichotomy. You
are the result of past events. Your nature, nurture, and experience have made you who you are, and you can't be free from being yourself. The only 'escape' from this is to assume something random contributed to who you are that had nothing to do with your nature or experience.
Endlessly stamping your foot and making the same illogical, irrational, baseless, and self-contradictory assertions, isn't going to change the basic logic of the situation one iota.
The concept of control does not exist in your scenario, because there is no ultimate source - no controller - just endless chains of inevitable reaction.
Again, you are not free to redefine the word 'control' to
mean your self-contradictory gibberish. Your mind
is in control and it is the 'source' of your decisions. However, it can't do the impossible and make a purposeful choice that isn't entirely due to reasons. Nor can it conjure reasons into existence that aren't due to previous reasons, without them being random.
You have still posted nothing at all that tells us that anything humans do needs this impossible, self-contradictory, unimaginable, version of 'freedom'. You're just repeating your incredulity and blind faith and totally ignoring the answers you've been given.