My ability to consciously assert demonstrates the reality of my gift of free will.
No, you're demonstrating the phenomena that we're all discussing, you're failing in any way to demonstrate that it's causatively because of the underlying features that you posit.
It is not that I do not like the implications.
That's not how it comes across.
I know that I have conscious control enabled within my conscious awareness.
How? How do you 'know'? You believe, quite strongly it seems, but you haven't demonstrated any reason to think that you can justify elevating that belief to a sense of knowledge. You have no basis for your contention other than that you don't like the alternative.
This is the reality which is denied by any materialistic attempt to explain what comprises my conscious awareness and how it works.
Even if you could somehow disprove the current materialistic model, or even all potential materialistic models, that still only leaves your notion as a possibility, it has not validation whatsoever.
O.