This reflection on today's Gospel reading from bishop Robert Barron seems highly appropriate for this thread:
Friends, today’s Gospel tells of the passion of John the Baptist, and it suggests to me “the Herod principle” that I like to apply to contemporary atheists. The Gospels tell us that Herod Antipas arrested John the Baptist because the prophet had publicly challenged the king. Herod threw John into prison, but then, we are told, the king loved secretly to listen to the prophet, who continued to preach from his cell.
A basic assumption of biblical people is that everyone is hardwired for God. As the Psalmist prayed, “My soul rests in God alone.” My wager is that everyone—and that includes Bill Maher and Richard Dawkins—implicitly wants God, and hence remains permanently fascinated by the things of God.
Though the fierce atheists of today profess that they would like to eliminate religious speech and religious ideas, secretly they love to listen as people speak of God. So I say to Christians and other believers: be ready for a good fight, and get some spiritual weapons in your hands. And I say to the atheists: I’ll keep talking—because I know, despite your protestations, that your hearts are listening.
Well Robert Barron is clearly far removed from reality. He needs to talk to more atheists before telling other people how we think.
I, like most atheists I know, don't want to "eliminate religious speech and religious ideas". People should be free to believe any delusional nonsense they want, as long as they're not actually harming anybody or encouraging others to do so, or trying to impose their irrational nonsense on others.
Neither do I (or other atheists I know) secretly want to listen to superstitious nonsense about people's many and varied versions of 'God'. In fact, I often find it utterly cringe-worthy, embarrassing, and often deeply saddening (as in your own case).
To the extent that humans are 'hardwired' for anything, it's survival, which means simplistic, quick, heuristics-based thinking, that is just about good enough most of the time, rather than careful, logical thought that takes far longer and is harder for us to do (see, for example,
Thinking, Fast and Slow by Daniel Kahneman). As a direct result of the bias towards survival in the environment we evolved in, we tend to be oversensitive to pattern recognitions and agency detection, simply because false positives were generally harmless, whereas false negatives could get you killed. It didn't really matter if we thought the wind and thunder had agency or if we could see faces in clouds and fire, but if we failed to recognise a predator, or failed to realise it intended to eat us, that was another matter.
So, yes, to a degree we are 'hardwired' for baseless superstitions like 'God'.