Brownie and Sassy, I don't really 'do' forums, this is the only one I post on. I joined NGLR under another name for a short time only to have a go at another poster who was damning homosexuals.... just couldn't sit back and just read. Funny, I didn't even discover forums until after I retired.
Brownie, actually, I have been the same as you this past week and engaging in quiet contemplation when on my own. I attended church on Sunday. Wonderful, rousing Easter hymns.
Sassy, yes, even as a believer, I sometimes think we fall short of the huge, HUGE price that was paid for us through Yeshua. The gravity and meaning of the event is almost too much to comprehend.