Hope, you've made writing about almost everything you would like to express on the forum considerably more difficult for yourself, the absence of the well known evidence you say you have and especially now you have added these foul comments about ordinary decent gay people to your repertoire.
You've condemned yourself to be doing some pretty elaborate dance steps when you write here in future, in order to circumvent yourself around both of these pretty serious inadequacies you have exposed about yourself.
Looks to me you've got some very hard rides ahead of you Hope, all your own fault, I can't say you don't deserve it.
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