The Christ was created to save us from the likes of NN and the Sass.
Jesus thought he was saving the Jews...
15 But the Lord said unto him, Go thy way: for he is a chosen vessel unto me, to bear my name before the Gentiles, and kings, and the children of Israel:
No! Jesus knew he came first to the Jew and then to the Gentile.
He accomplished all he was supposed to do and then we see Paul is sent to the Gentirles, Kings and the children of Israel.
You appear to deliberately elude yourself.
What is it, you realise we tell the truth and that you, even you cannot turn away and believe differently.
What do you think would have happened if Christ had no made Paul blind to his old ways and opened his eyes to the new paths?
You know you want to believe but you also know that your heart is hardened.
If God can change Paul/Saul then you are even easier to change the heart.
Do you think yourself less important to Christ than Paul? Imagine all you could be if you allowed Christ to cast off the scales from your eyes.