And what you 'preach' Sass is the product of your imagination.
Floo,
There is a difference between something which is and something you don't want to exist.
I know if you really had a heart that cared if God existed or not. Then you could tell God that you want to believe but need him to show you he is there. But the truth is, that even though God is there, you believe yourself to be superior to your creator.
You blame him and not the devil for everything bad in the world. This you do because you do not realise if God exists then so does the evil one who does the evil and causes you to believe the evil about God and not him.
Sometimes, knowing about God means you have to learn about the reality about yourself and Satan.
God never lied to you only humans and the devil. But you choose to remain with the people who lied and with Satan.
Do you not realise in rejecting God you are accepting Satan and accepting that the evil he does is okay with yourself?
You actually condone what Satan does in rejecting God.