What is more positive in a persons life than helping the homeless, the starving and the poor. My God leads me in paths which benefit others. How will your life have benefited others when you leave it? Reality is... religion is just a practice of rituals to you. In reality to me it is a way of life changed by love from a God of love who places care for others as a genuine act from the heart. I am sorry you feel as you do. I do not measure my life by such thoughts and I do not judge others by my own thoughts. Truth is that life is about making a difference because we care. Try not thinking of it as religious codes of practice. Try seeing it as a living reality in the presence of a gracious and loving God who loves all...EVEN YOU.
Like I said about indoctrination, no one needs to be religious to be able to help or be of benifit to our fellow man.
I can see a social side of regular meetings of friends, nothing wrong with any of that.
You give me the impression of someone much like the rest of us here on the forum, basicly decent and care about others without being over the top about it, I think you would be more or less the same person I have described without believing in the magical, mystical, superstition based beliefs bereft of any evidence that might have supported them.
I'm not judging you, but there are better things to do than wasting time on any way of life, that in your case you think it's the truth where you nor anyone else has the smallest shred of evidence that could in any way support any of the magical, mystical, superstitional based parts that the whole of these beliefs hang on.
In turn I feel sorry for you that you hang your life on such a load of bronze age ignorent nonsense, (ignorent in respect of things like not even knowing the Earth orbits the Sun).
You seem to suggest it's necessary to have a religious belief to be able to care for others and you really do think it's you that's living in reality, I'll assume you're joking.
Kind regards ippy.