For what? You are the one worshipping children dying in pain and calling it love.
No I worship God who made nature.
I take it you find nature an unerring horrid thing.
Death and suffering are our lot but the real monstrousness is equating suffering from nature with the suffering inflicted at the hands of humans.
I am beginning to think that the reason you cannot contemplate a moment where as Julian of Norwich states ''all shall be well'' is that you just cannot see it or believe it because perhaps you have had no taste of it.