No, it just means I used to do helpful things such as delivering leaflets (I'd had to leave teaching with minimal warning) and the Club organised days out and the food was good. Also I got to know some interesting people.
Nope Susan - that doesn't wash.
I used to be a member of a political party (not the Tories of course), and therefore I understand the 'hierarchy' of party political engagement very well. I doubt very much that it is different in the Tories, and it certainly didn't used to be at the time when my parents were both Tory members and Tory activists.
So the first thing to say is that only about 200,000 (compared to the nigh on 14 million who voted tory in 2019). So even in terms of tory supporters, a conservative party member is a very, very rare beast - just 1.4% of tory voters. So simply by being a member suggests a very unusual level of commitment to the conservative party.
Secondly (again unless your party association is very, very different to the one I was closely involved in, which I doubt), most party members are paper members only, not activists - they do absolutely zilch for the party on the ground. There are a smaller group of activists, who actually do stuff and as you were doing stuff you are part of that minority of the minority. Now there tends to be a hierarchy here too - the lowest level of activism tends to be delivering leaflets as it doesn't require you to justify your views on the doorstep (this is where you sit Susan). You then move to higher levels of activism - further subsets who canvass, who stand in elections, who take up officer roles in the party. You don't seem to indicate you got further than a leaflet-delivering party member and activist - but even to be in this position isn't what 'most' people do, nor even 'many' people - it is a tiny number politically engaged and passionate enough who do this - that's you Susan.
I note you also cast off leaflet delivering as 'helpful' - helpful to whom? Well obviously helpful to the Conservative party as leaflets are all about getting people to vote for you by delivering effectively party political propaganda - they serve no other meaningful function.
Finally - you mention a 'club' - well presumably that is a Conservative Social Club, such as exists in all sorts of places. But again as far as I am aware these organisations are separate from the Conservative Party and you do not need to be a member of the Conservative Associations (the political party) to be a member of a Conservative Club, nor vice versa. So if you liked the Club and its food you could just have been a member of the club, not also a member of the party, and a political activist at that.
So stop trying to imply that you aren't really political - perhaps you are embarrassed to admit it, but you certainly used to be a Tory party member and activist - and that demonstrates a very high level of engagement in and passion for the Conservative party, given that the vast, vast majority of people aren't members of any political party and even those that are, I suspect most aren't activists.