I guess, sort of. It's just important to me that my beliefs have a reasonable chance of being true. You talk of 'progress' as if I'm stuck or something, but I really don't see it like that at all. To be honest, the way of thinking you describe just doesn't make sense to me. Even if I decided for some reason that I wanted to 'progress' in that way, I'd have no clue how to go about it. My brain just doesn't seem to work that way. My beliefs are based on whether I'm convinced by the information I have or not. It's not something I can just choose, something would have to change my mind.
Sure - I agree you need to have some speck of belief to change your mind. That's what happened to me - I read a few pages of the Quran as an atheist thinking this is bound to be complete misogynist rubbish and something sparked in my brain - some kind of recognition of how the words applied to me in a way that I had not ever thought about before. So reading something I wasn't expecting to find changed my mind and sparked a belief even though I didn't want it to - in something that seemed to know me better than I knew myself. The experience sounds mundane and stupid, but I don't really have the words to describe the feeling.
By 'progress' I meant move on to some other aspect - like in an exam where you are confident you answered Q1 (i) but don't know the answer to Q1 (ii) so you fudge it or guess something or take a position that you can use to move on to Q1 (iii), (iv), and (v).
So if I guess Allah exists based on faith, I can use that to move onto the other parts of actually practising the religion - fasting, praying, zakat, Hajj etc - and if that improves and benefits my life more than being atheist, then I have even less motivation to go ack to being an atheist.
My experience often is that my actions, even when my heart isn't in it, has an impact on my emotions and feelings - e.g. in Islam prayer has a series of set movements and rituals so I could pray 5 times a day because I'm required to even though I'd rather do something else, but by the end of the prayer I feel better than I did before I started so I'm glad I did it.
It's like going for a run when you don't feel like it and enjoying the endorphin buzz when you finish.
Praying in Arabic means while you're saying the words from the Quran, you're translating them into English in your head as you're saying them, contemplating their meaning and how it applies to you and the problems in the world around you etc etc. It doesn't mean I end up with any answers or am sure or certain, but the words in the Quran mean something to me - similar to how the words of Pinker, Russell and Feynman mean something to you.
The Pinker/Russell quote made perfect sense to me, as does the following:
"I think it's much more interesting to live not knowing than to have answers which might be wrong. I have approximate answers, and possible beliefs, and different degrees of uncertainty about different things, but I am not absolutely sure of anything. There are many things I don't know anything about, such as whether it means anything to ask "Why are we here?" I might think about it a little bit, and if I can't figure it out then I go on to something else. But I don't have to know an answer. I don't feel frightened by not knowing things, by being lost in the mysterious universe without having any purpose - which is the way it really is, as far as I can tell."
-- Richard Feynman, The Pleasure of Finding Things Out
Sure, I agree, there is nothing frightening about not having a purpose. Being an atheist was pretty comforting - knowing once you die, that's it.
Belief in some kind of higher accountability is less comforting. What I find comforting as a theist I suppose is that reading the Quran gives me a belief in purpose and accountability, which leads me to practise Islam, which I find keeps me out of trouble (and improves my mental and emotional health) more than if I didn't practise Islam.